About me, what "Simple creed" does to me..., For people who want to know it Options

[GvB]

Hello,

I know that I can react very sensitive and emotional on particular things (the songs "Simple Creed" and "Overcome" for example and comments on that) and that it makes some people feel uncomfortable or annoyed.

But there are reasons for this behaviour.

It is because I'm very aware of the fact that I have to be grateful that I'm still alive.
I was born with a serious spinal cord problem called spina bifida.
It means that my backbone hasn't closed properly and that my nervous system is seriously damaged.
And I had water on my brain which has done even more damage on my nervous system.
I barely survived the first weeks of my life and had several operations during my youth.
Okay my legs are for a big part paralysed and so is my belly and I have a motion disturbtion of my hands because my hands, eyes and brain don't work together very well.
But I'm still alive and appreciate that.

But that's why I feel unhappy when I see or hear about people who argue, abusing other people (or themselves), fight a war, oppress each other, kill each other (our themselves) or being not careful with the nature.
All that comes together in "Overcome" to me.

Then I feel like screaming out that people should LIVE their lifes and do positive things with it and LOVE EACH OTHER!
It feels to me like Ed is doing that for me in "Simple creed".

Further: I was bullied at school when I was a teenager because of the fact that I'm slow and unhandy and emotional, and some people (both classmates and a few teachers) saw that as a very funny combination.
The line "I bet you took a gun to school too!" ("Simple Creed") hit me like a knife the first time I heard it because I had to admit that I had ever felt like doing that.
That was a not very nice confrontation, but oh so necessary!

Further I want to make clear that I'm happy with my life in spite of everything I have been through, the disabilities I have to live with, the fact that I still meet misunderstanding very often (even people who have been knowing me all my life do struggle with understanding me).
But I know that there are a lot of good people (big and small) who love me, lots of good music with good lyrics (according to me), sweet animals and that I believe in God.

In other words: I'm happy, but I've got my scars and things that make me sad (I hope that you all understand that from now on).
But I live and love my life as much as I can!

All I ask from everybody is: try to understand, respect and love everybody for as much as you can and think before you post of what your post can do to others!

GvB.

This post has been edited by GvB: Aug 12 2006, 11:14 am

[zmanpga]

sweet animals and that I believe in God

ANIMALS RULE

[ladylakini17]

sweet animals and that I believe in God

ANIMALS RULE

sry but i dont really see how that relates to the subject at hand...

[Lis]

it doesnt matter what age you are. With a bit of luck youll have some more tools of dealing with shitty things when you get older. Thats the only difference.
what ive come to understand and what i am trying to live is this, sometimes you need anger so you wont have to deal with the real underlying emotions. Its not a bad thing, its a necessary phase in dealing with it. But there does come a time that you have to face them, unless you wish to be angry and bitter for the rest of your life. It is a decision i made at some point, i dont want to feel angry and bitter and depressed anymore, so i delved into my feelings, went through even more shit doing that then when the events themselves took place. Things going back to early childhood etc etc. It wasnt easy, wasnt easy at all. But i am glad i did it. I am glad i made the decision not to want to be angry and depressed anymore. I admit life is a bit dull, when not everybody is out to get you, and there are no conspiracies of people trying to burry you. But there is also a lot more fun, ive learned to appreciate the little things, ive learned how i can avoid fights and discussions (most times anyway) without feeling like i am losing out. Ive learned how not to push certain buttons, and.. how not to have my own buttons pushed. It saves me a lot of energy, that i can put into fun things :-)
Basically what i meant to say was, it is a decision. Happiness is a decision to a certain extend. You need to make that decision, work through your shit and then you can be happy. You cannot control what happens to you... but you can most definately control how you deal with it. But you will have to deal with it...
my 2 cents, Lis