About me, what "Simple creed" does to me..., For people who want to know it Options

[GvB]

Hello,

I know that I can react very sensitive and emotional on particular things (the songs "Simple Creed" and "Overcome" for example and comments on that) and that it makes some people feel uncomfortable or annoyed.

But there are reasons for this behaviour.

It is because I'm very aware of the fact that I have to be grateful that I'm still alive.
I was born with a serious spinal cord problem called spina bifida.
It means that my backbone hasn't closed properly and that my nervous system is seriously damaged.
And I had water on my brain which has done even more damage on my nervous system.
I barely survived the first weeks of my life and had several operations during my youth.
Okay my legs are for a big part paralysed and so is my belly and I have a motion disturbtion of my hands because my hands, eyes and brain don't work together very well.
But I'm still alive and appreciate that.

But that's why I feel unhappy when I see or hear about people who argue, abusing other people (or themselves), fight a war, oppress each other, kill each other (our themselves) or being not careful with the nature.
All that comes together in "Overcome" to me.

Then I feel like screaming out that people should LIVE their lifes and do positive things with it and LOVE EACH OTHER!
It feels to me like Ed is doing that for me in "Simple creed".

Further: I was bullied at school when I was a teenager because of the fact that I'm slow and unhandy and emotional, and some people (both classmates and a few teachers) saw that as a very funny combination.
The line "I bet you took a gun to school too!" ("Simple Creed") hit me like a knife the first time I heard it because I had to admit that I had ever felt like doing that.
That was a not very nice confrontation, but oh so necessary!

Further I want to make clear that I'm happy with my life in spite of everything I have been through, the disabilities I have to live with, the fact that I still meet misunderstanding very often (even people who have been knowing me all my life do struggle with understanding me).
But I know that there are a lot of good people (big and small) who love me, lots of good music with good lyrics (according to me), sweet animals and that I believe in God.

In other words: I'm happy, but I've got my scars and things that make me sad (I hope that you all understand that from now on).
But I live and love my life as much as I can!

All I ask from everybody is: try to understand, respect and love everybody for as much as you can and think before you post of what your post can do to others!

GvB.

This post has been edited by GvB: Aug 12 2006, 11:14 am

[LiveRoCkS77]

Hello,

I know that I can react very sensitive and emotional on particular things (the songs "Simple Creed" and "Overcome" for example and comments on that) and that it makes some people feel uncomfortable or annoyed.

But there are reasons for this behaviour.

It is because I'm very aware of the fact that I have to be grateful that I'm still alive.
I was born with a serious spinal cord problem called spina bifida.
It means that my backbone hasn't closed properly and that my nervous system is seriously damaged.
And I had water on my brain which has done even more damage on my nervous system.
I barely survived the first weeks of my life and had several operations during my youth.
Okay my legs are for a big part paralysed and so is my belly and I have a motion disturbtion of my hands because my hands, eyes and brain don't work together very well.
But I'm still alive and appreciate that.

But that's why I feel unhappy when I see or hear about people who argue, abusing other people (or themselves), fight a war, oppress each other, kill each other (our themselves) or being not careful with the nature.
All that comes together in "Overcome" to me.

Then I feel like screaming out that people should LIVE their lifes and do positive things with it and LOVE EACH OTHER!
It feels to me like Ed is doing that for me in "Simple creed".

Further: I was bullied at school when I was a teenager because of the fact that I'm slow and unhandy and emotional, and some people (both classmates and a few teachers) saw that as a very funny combination.
The line "I bet you took a gun to school too!" ("Simple Creed") hit me like a knife the first time I heard it because I had to admit that I had ever felt like doing that.
That was a not very nice confrontation, but oh so necessary!

Further I want to make clear that I'm happy with my life in spite of everything I have been through, the disabilities I have to live with, the fact that I still meet misunderstanding very often (even people who have been knowing me all my life do struggle with understanding me).
But I know that there are a lot of good people (big and small) who love me, lots of good music with good lyrics (according to me), sweet animals and that I believe in God.

In other words: I'm happy, but I've got my scars and things that make me sad (I hope that you all understand that from now on).
But I live and love my life as much as I can!

All I ask from everybody is: try to understand, respect and love everybody for as much as you can and think before you post of what your post can do to others!

GvB.

Well, I had no problem understanding you there. Well said and good for you for dealing with things the way you do.

I feel guilty sometimes for not being as appreciative of life as I should be. For not being happy for being blessed with what I HAVE actually been blessed with. I feel the same as you in a lot of ways and can appreciate what you've said.

But in the end, I really don't give a fuck anymore. People are going to be the way they're going to be and I can't change shit. So the attitude I take is that if you fuck with me? I'll hurt you and hurt you bad so that you know not to come back again unless you're prepared to kill me. I don't really give a shit what people do to each other anymore period. The entire world can blow to fucking bits for all I care.

But honestly, the world would be what people like you want it to be if EVERYBODY was born like you were. People would know what it's like to suffer. People would appreciate life so much more and maybe have a little compassion for the person next to them.

I envy you for your attitude, don't ever let go of it. Your disability is a blessing and the world needs more people like you.

[ladylakini17]

Well, I had no problem understanding you there. Well said and good for you for dealing with things the way you do.

I feel guilty sometimes for not being as appreciative of life as I should be. For not being happy for being blessed with what I HAVE actually been blessed with. I feel the same as you in a lot of ways and can appreciate what you've said.

But in the end, I really don't give a fuck anymore. People are going to be the way they're going to be and I can't change shit. So the attitude I take is that if you fuck with me? I'll hurt you and hurt you bad so that you know not to come back again unless you're prepared to kill me. I don't really give a shit what people do to each other anymore period. The entire world can blow to fucking bits for all I care.

But honestly, the world would be what people like you want it to be if EVERYBODY was born like you were. People would know what it's like to suffer. People would appreciate life so much more and maybe have a little compassion for the person next to them.

I envy you for your attitude, don't ever let go of it. Your disability is a blessing and the world needs more people like you.

and less people like you!!

[GvB]

LiveRoCkS77: Thank you very much for your reply.
I don't know what you have been through, but that must be hard too.
Maybe even harder than what I have been through.
Maybe it can help you to listen to songs that can help you instead of songs that confirm you into feeling bad.

Maybe the song "Where fishes go" which is on "The distance to here" can help a little.
I play that often when I have bad day and it helps me.
I hope that it can help you too.

Ladylakini17: Your reaction to LiveRoCkS77 is not fair.
His way of acting has its reasons too.
You don't know what he has been through.
And I guess it's something very difficult.

GvB.

[ladylakini17]

LiveRoCkS77: Thank you very much for your reply.
I don't know what you have been through, but that must be hard too.
Maybe even harder than what I have been through.
Maybe it can help you to listen to songs that can help you instead of songs that confirm you into feeling bad.

Maybe the song "Where fishes go" which is on "The distance to here" can help a little.
I play that often when I have bad day and it helps me.
I hope that it can help you too.

Ladylakini17: Your reaction to LiveRoCkS77 is not fair.
His way of acting has its reasons too.
You don't know what he has been through.
And I guess it's something very difficult.

GvB.

the only reason i said that is because he has made very many nasty stabs at me in the thread 'shock, horror'....sry.....and even if he has been trough alot he doesnt need to be mean and heartless to everyone on the board.

i am sorry to hear about all your struggles youve been through in ur life and i can relate to u in many was for i have had many many obstacles to overcome in my life just like u have.....some which are even hard for me to talk about and i understand when u say that live has helped u out alot cuz they have helped me get through many hard times in my life, and yeah yeah i no im only 15 for those of u who judge me b/c of my age and dont think that i have been through nething harsh but just cuz im 15 doesnt mean a thing...many people should be thankful that wut happened to me didnt happen to them....and if it did...then my sympathy goes out to u.